I want to burst out cry. I couldn’t hang on everyday. Someday I could be strong and happy but someday I couldn’t.
I have problems in my family. My grandma complaining that she got feel the pain on her abdominal. My 1st bro vomited today.
My mum and me had tried our best to look after them and supported them, why my 1st bro doesn’t want to take his own initiative to take care of himself. He could walk, eat and sleep. Why he need us to worry about him, anymore? I pity my mum most of the time. I couldn’t handle this emotion anymore.
I see my mum wakes up early in the morning, doing the house chores, preparing breakfast and lunch for my 1st bro and grandma then she goes to work until the late night she comes back and doing the house chores, preparing drinks for my 1st bro and she goes to sleep in the midnight.
She does that in daily life. I for myself, I don’t think I could do it.
I’m weak, emotionally. And I cry. Couldn't help it.
I know my life is not the sad case, other families even worst.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Worries
I tried to take things easily to move on with my life, or am I being too much? I don't know how to explain. Since I got something happened in my family and myself, my feelings were numb. I'd moved on.
Mum was worried. She has a lot of things in her mind to worry. My grandma, my brothers and now it was me. She thoughts that she has nothing to worry about me cause she knew that I could take care of myself. But now she is very concern about me.
Though me and my mum wasn't close as much as we could but I love her. Something I have feeling doubts in myself, unsecure and selfish. Most of the time I don't share with my mum, I don't know why.
Sorry mum for worrying about me. I have no intention to worry about me. Not intend to.
Mum was worried. She has a lot of things in her mind to worry. My grandma, my brothers and now it was me. She thoughts that she has nothing to worry about me cause she knew that I could take care of myself. But now she is very concern about me.
Though me and my mum wasn't close as much as we could but I love her. Something I have feeling doubts in myself, unsecure and selfish. Most of the time I don't share with my mum, I don't know why.
Sorry mum for worrying about me. I have no intention to worry about me. Not intend to.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
MATTA Fair, September 2006
Yesterday and again, I hanged out yam char with a long time friend. We started our session at mamak past 11pm until past 1am.
We talked most the things that we were far behind about our life. It’s been a long time we were not meet since 7 years ago, I guess. Therefore, it was a good advises and plans that we were discussed. I was enjoying seeing an old friend and we had talked a lot.
I would like to thanks for all the hassle for fetching me, yam char together and also the small gift from Australia. It was thoughtful.
I hope we could have more conversation and more yam char session again. Thank ya!
Today, I went to MATTA Fair at PWTC this afternoon. I went with my colleague and his friends. And nice meeting you people. :)
We reached there at about past 1pm. We’d got to buy the entrance ticket RM3 in order to get in. I was expected the place to be crowded but it was not as many people as during the PC Fair. We went into the Hall 1 and 2 where most of the travel agents companies have their foreign travel promotions. I was just looking around while gather some information that I wanted, but most of the promotions of the time period were extended to 31 March 2007. The prices were reasonable if you’re prepared with your savings.
I’m not sure what the time we had our lunch but we went to the shopping mall to have Pizza Hut. After we had finished, we went back for second round hunting. This time we went to Hall 3 where most of the agents were having local travel promotions. We were not interested to find out more about the promotions but we headed back to Hall 1 and 2.
My colleague’s friends bought the travel packages and we finally finished our hunting at about 7pm. It was 6 hours we were hanging out in the fair. But it was a good experience; at least you know where to hunt for the prices.
The next fair will be at 16 – 18 March 2007. Those who want to travel maybe can check it out on this coming fair, next year.
We talked most the things that we were far behind about our life. It’s been a long time we were not meet since 7 years ago, I guess. Therefore, it was a good advises and plans that we were discussed. I was enjoying seeing an old friend and we had talked a lot.
I would like to thanks for all the hassle for fetching me, yam char together and also the small gift from Australia. It was thoughtful.
I hope we could have more conversation and more yam char session again. Thank ya!
Today, I went to MATTA Fair at PWTC this afternoon. I went with my colleague and his friends. And nice meeting you people. :)
We reached there at about past 1pm. We’d got to buy the entrance ticket RM3 in order to get in. I was expected the place to be crowded but it was not as many people as during the PC Fair. We went into the Hall 1 and 2 where most of the travel agents companies have their foreign travel promotions. I was just looking around while gather some information that I wanted, but most of the promotions of the time period were extended to 31 March 2007. The prices were reasonable if you’re prepared with your savings.
I’m not sure what the time we had our lunch but we went to the shopping mall to have Pizza Hut. After we had finished, we went back for second round hunting. This time we went to Hall 3 where most of the agents were having local travel promotions. We were not interested to find out more about the promotions but we headed back to Hall 1 and 2.
My colleague’s friends bought the travel packages and we finally finished our hunting at about 7pm. It was 6 hours we were hanging out in the fair. But it was a good experience; at least you know where to hunt for the prices.
The next fair will be at 16 – 18 March 2007. Those who want to travel maybe can check it out on this coming fair, next year.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Hang Out
Yesterday night I hanged out with my colleagues and ex-colleagues. Some of us (4 people) went to Esquire Kitchen to have our dinner at around past 8pm. Then later on, all of us (6 people) turned up for the yam char session at PJ. The guys have their beer while the gals had the orange juice.
We started our yam char session around at past 10pm until almost midnight. We talked all the crap most of the time but we were enjoying our drinks.
Most of us complain about our hectic works that we will never satisfy. Sometimes we talked something that was unfair to our life. Heck them, we were just trying to express our stress amongst us. It was a way to express our dissatisfaction among friends that we trusted.
Therefore it was a good way to relieve our tension. :)
And for today, I did something this afternoon. I don’t want to say it all here. Let it be a secret.
After what I’d done with my stuff, I went to ex-colleague’s house to ‘lepak’. She just bought a small little puppy and I don’t know what breed. I can’t remember what she had told me because my interest pet is just a cat! Anyway, her puppy is damn cute and small.
I had dinner with her and her boyfriend at somewhere Miharja, the neighborhood street restaurant. Not bad at all the dishes. We had dishes like crab, meat, chicken and vege. I’m kinda full now. I had forgotten to take some pictures of the dishes although I brought the digi-camera in my bag. It was good, tasty and cheap too. Here I would like to thank her boyfriend for the dinner. Thank you!
;)
We started our yam char session around at past 10pm until almost midnight. We talked all the crap most of the time but we were enjoying our drinks.
Most of us complain about our hectic works that we will never satisfy. Sometimes we talked something that was unfair to our life. Heck them, we were just trying to express our stress amongst us. It was a way to express our dissatisfaction among friends that we trusted.
Therefore it was a good way to relieve our tension. :)
And for today, I did something this afternoon. I don’t want to say it all here. Let it be a secret.
After what I’d done with my stuff, I went to ex-colleague’s house to ‘lepak’. She just bought a small little puppy and I don’t know what breed. I can’t remember what she had told me because my interest pet is just a cat! Anyway, her puppy is damn cute and small.
I had dinner with her and her boyfriend at somewhere Miharja, the neighborhood street restaurant. Not bad at all the dishes. We had dishes like crab, meat, chicken and vege. I’m kinda full now. I had forgotten to take some pictures of the dishes although I brought the digi-camera in my bag. It was good, tasty and cheap too. Here I would like to thank her boyfriend for the dinner. Thank you!
;)
Bath
It has been for the past 3 weeks, my cat, Cum-Mon never taken his bath. I know it sounds wrong and you guys might think that he is such a dirty cat. Yup, you’re right! He is very dirty. He likes to hang around the garden, plays with his gang-friend cats (neighborhoods), sleep on the dirt-ground; he likes to go everywhere as a role of a ‘street-cat’. But he never goes far away from home. Still the home is best for him. :)
So, since the 3 weeks were a lot of thing had happened and also with the weather condition, today I manage to get my ass up early morning to bath him. His originality color of his fur was orangish but it turned to ‘kopi-o’ instead.
It almost took at least half and hour to rub him nicely without leaving any spot of his dirt’s. I poured a lot of cat’s shampoo and rinse him thoroughly with warm water.
He is clean and smells good now.
So, since the 3 weeks were a lot of thing had happened and also with the weather condition, today I manage to get my ass up early morning to bath him. His originality color of his fur was orangish but it turned to ‘kopi-o’ instead.
It almost took at least half and hour to rub him nicely without leaving any spot of his dirt’s. I poured a lot of cat’s shampoo and rinse him thoroughly with warm water.
He is clean and smells good now.
Renew
I went to renew my passport. Wanted to renew since my passport expired on January this year but there were certain excuses that I couldn't have it done.
Now it finally had done.
5 years then was ugly. We got to take our picture on the spot while processing the passport application. And now, we could take the passport picture at anywhere photo-shops that we could get.
Here is mine:
I got to change them into gray scale colors to protect any simulated.
I know I look the same but there are differences.
Now it finally had done.
5 years then was ugly. We got to take our picture on the spot while processing the passport application. And now, we could take the passport picture at anywhere photo-shops that we could get.
Here is mine:
I got to change them into gray scale colors to protect any simulated.
I know I look the same but there are differences.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Norm
I'd posted some of the sad thing happened to me and I didn't asked for the publicity for sympathy or attraction. That the only way I could say something that I keep in myself. I had removed them from the blog as I'd let it go for it past.
I'm over it. Nothing to be despair. Life moves on.
There a lot of things I wanted to do. Well, I got manage the time to get things done.
Now, for the moment, I got to love myself, live happily with amongst my friends and families.
And I won't forget to update my blog.
p/s: Thanks to my friends and families for being there for me. I'm really do appreciate that. Don't forget to call me out for outing, ya!
I'm over it. Nothing to be despair. Life moves on.
There a lot of things I wanted to do. Well, I got manage the time to get things done.
Now, for the moment, I got to love myself, live happily with amongst my friends and families.
And I won't forget to update my blog.
p/s: Thanks to my friends and families for being there for me. I'm really do appreciate that. Don't forget to call me out for outing, ya!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Nightmare
This year, especially in August month has happened a lot of unexpected scenes/incidents. Firstly is about my grandma. She got a sudden ill on 19th August in the very first early morning. She was not fully conscious of her behaviors. My mum was very concern with her health though she has had her sickness. We (families & relatives) were aware of her sickness but something is bad happening to her. My grandma was trembling and she couldn’t walk herself as she used to. She couldn’t get down from her bed and even she was complaining that she has no energy to walk. She got cram on her legs. Mum quickly informed other siblings about grandma’s condition.
Mum even cried in front of her, since there was no response when asking her whether she wants to see a doctor. She barely moves. Mum bathed her. Dressed her while waiting for aunties and uncles to come to decide whether to bring her to see a doctor. They all asked grandma. They persuade her to see doctor but she scared to get admitted. They explained to her if she doesn’t want to get admitted, at least just see the doctor to get the prescriptions. Then she agreed.
Uncle bought lunch and we had it in the house together with grandma. She still has some energy to eat but we got to feed her. We have several of foods on the table but she doesn’t have her appetite. She just ate the porridge. They all wait for Uncle Mike to fetch them with his cargo van. I guess they went at about past 7-8pm. I wasn’t there. I was tired and asleep. I was at home until they came back nearly at past 11pm. The doctor said my grandma got a heat throat infection. I do not know what term in medical words but something heaty in her body. She does not comsume enough water in her body.
But now, the present she is okay. She is just unstable to walk with her foot. She needs something a stick to support her walks.
Secondly, there were something happening in my workplace. I doesn't want to tell all but one of its that the back-up server for our publishing was crashed. We got to re-do the whole magazines in a short time before send for print. That was havoc. Stay overnight to finish them up. Problem solved.
Then it was my broken up with Michael of the 7 years relationship. It's been 8 days after the separation, I'm ok.
During that 8 days, there was something happened too not only my separation. I was so stress but tried to concentrate other things like my bro has to admit to hospital. I was brave enough after the separation, accompany my mum to hospital. Took almost a week of leave to take care of my bro in the hospital. Mum was busy with her works since the day she left her work without giving her employers the notice. I was going to and fro hospital. Pretty exhausted. Staying with bro in the hospital was quite boring. Nothing much to do but read newspaper early in the morning and some reading books.
When the days he was getting better, I informed him that I go out/hang out with my friends at certain places that will come back to the hospital later. But now, my bro is discharged and came back to home. Everyday he needs to take his medicines as to follow-up with the hospital after the 2 months intake. Sigh.
A lot of things happen in the house but I wouldn't want to share it here. Its kind of personal to me and to my family.
Life moves on. Deal with the obstacles. Love people who is around us especially families and friends. Be optimistic.
If I need to complain or need someone to talk to, I'll know who to find. There always the yam char session with friends and families.
Mum even cried in front of her, since there was no response when asking her whether she wants to see a doctor. She barely moves. Mum bathed her. Dressed her while waiting for aunties and uncles to come to decide whether to bring her to see a doctor. They all asked grandma. They persuade her to see doctor but she scared to get admitted. They explained to her if she doesn’t want to get admitted, at least just see the doctor to get the prescriptions. Then she agreed.
Uncle bought lunch and we had it in the house together with grandma. She still has some energy to eat but we got to feed her. We have several of foods on the table but she doesn’t have her appetite. She just ate the porridge. They all wait for Uncle Mike to fetch them with his cargo van. I guess they went at about past 7-8pm. I wasn’t there. I was tired and asleep. I was at home until they came back nearly at past 11pm. The doctor said my grandma got a heat throat infection. I do not know what term in medical words but something heaty in her body. She does not comsume enough water in her body.
But now, the present she is okay. She is just unstable to walk with her foot. She needs something a stick to support her walks.
Secondly, there were something happening in my workplace. I doesn't want to tell all but one of its that the back-up server for our publishing was crashed. We got to re-do the whole magazines in a short time before send for print. That was havoc. Stay overnight to finish them up. Problem solved.
Then it was my broken up with Michael of the 7 years relationship. It's been 8 days after the separation, I'm ok.
During that 8 days, there was something happened too not only my separation. I was so stress but tried to concentrate other things like my bro has to admit to hospital. I was brave enough after the separation, accompany my mum to hospital. Took almost a week of leave to take care of my bro in the hospital. Mum was busy with her works since the day she left her work without giving her employers the notice. I was going to and fro hospital. Pretty exhausted. Staying with bro in the hospital was quite boring. Nothing much to do but read newspaper early in the morning and some reading books.
When the days he was getting better, I informed him that I go out/hang out with my friends at certain places that will come back to the hospital later. But now, my bro is discharged and came back to home. Everyday he needs to take his medicines as to follow-up with the hospital after the 2 months intake. Sigh.
A lot of things happen in the house but I wouldn't want to share it here. Its kind of personal to me and to my family.
Life moves on. Deal with the obstacles. Love people who is around us especially families and friends. Be optimistic.
If I need to complain or need someone to talk to, I'll know who to find. There always the yam char session with friends and families.
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